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2010-02-01T22:38:00.001+08:00

i hate myself too!

2010-01-03T16:59:00.002+08:00

hellox!!

today super bored!!!
gahh..!

sleep at 2 plus and wake up at 8am plus..
super tired luh!!
spoil my beauty sleep lo :x

went chong pang have breakfast with grandma..
the porridge very very nice xP
then bought a pair of shoes..
it nice <3
grandma bargain with the uncle very funny lo..

then have hair cut..
dam disappointed siah..
it freaking idiot look..
of cos it is ugly lo!!
very difficult to tie up siah!!
wtf.!

went home and slack till next day!!!

2009-12-30T20:22:00.002+08:00

hellox peeps!

very long nvr update :/
u all have to blame VB kay?!!
it so tiring..

going to 2010 le..
bye 2009...
it a wonderful year for me..

[my mind blank..]

went back to training on this monday..
omg.
my first ball receive really cmi!
not sure wat cause it..
maybe i just didn't focus..
hmm..
it get btr on wednesday which is TODAY!!
hahax.
but still not up to standard..

[mind blank again....]

ahh..
too tired to think abt other things to say..
hee..

2009-12-24T21:59:00.002+08:00

hellox peeps!!!

gonna start with LEE MIN HO concert first kay?!
he is duper cute luh!
can see that he damn shy cos everyone is shouting ' I LOVE U ' [korea]
hahahh!
the games are super funny and CUTE!!
but i really hate a auntie!
she v greedy siah..
do so many things with my LEE MIN HO!!
not ps at all sia!

those fans that can hug him.. take pic with him.. eye fight with him..
get him to call u... get him to feed u....
omg luh!
u all super lucky!!!
[jealous~~]

the concert ended with a song x.x!
' MY EVERYTHING '
peeps, pls go listen kay??!!
really very nice!!

LEE MIN HO,
u are a great guy!
really sweet and wonderful guy!!
will remember u forever!!
<333

after the concert also very fun lo..
SENIOR, u all are so CUTE & FUNNY!!
blea...!
haahahhh..

oya!
i sprain my ankle too :(
sadded!
and! it before LEE MIN HO concert!
i should pon that morning training lo..
but! im good so i went training..
i sprain my ankle after i cover 1! ball only!!!!!!
damn stupid lo!!
i haven serve nor spike!
and i CRAWL out of the court!
hmph!

hahah!
before i forget!

MERRY X'MAS!!!
going out with darling and zhenzhen to celebrate it!!!
wee!

2009-12-19T23:16:00.002+08:00

hellox!!

lazybum back to post!!
ahh.. my blog really dead!
eh.. eh.. i noe my blog bored but readers, also must show support!!!

no training = slack at home!
i rotted in home le!!
call 999/995 for me pls!
hahahhhhhah!

gonna be usher tmr!!
duper nervous!!
woot~!
i scare i fall!!
damn malu!!
cos is on stage!!!!!!!
hahhha!!

going LEE MIN HO concert with darling, zhenzhen
& 2 senior!!
im crazy over him manx!!!
hope can hug him siah!!!
LEE MIN HO <3

sorry fion jiejie!
u are a great girl!
u sacrifice ur tickets and gave my frenz!!
really thank you!!!!!!

2009-12-17T21:57:00.000+08:00

hellox!
guaikai back to post!! xD
ahhah. bhb :P

slack whole day at home!.
sooner will rot!
[pathetic!.!]
wanna go SSC but my useless juliet dun wan pei me!
u superduper bad!
[arggh!*!]
so in the end, nvr go and rotted at home!!

tmr going out with my happy apple!
ahhha! Siying super good can!
useless juliet, u should learn fr her luh!
ahhhhahhhahhha!
happy apple pei-ing me to SSC to shop after i go sch try CCHY jacket!
ahhh!
damn cool kay?!

gonna be usher for the CO concert!!
i volunteer de!!
i duper good bah!!
[b^h^b]
gonna see my mama!!

I LOVE MAMA!! €
hahhaahh!
i know u love me too!!
hahahhhh ^^

2009-12-16T22:28:00.002+08:00

hellox!!

ahh...
guaikia!! posting now! xD
stupid peiru!
i not stupid when i dun post kay?!!
i just lazy niah!!

today have friendly with queenways!
woots~!
damn high luh!!
queenways guys[c boys] superduper funny luh!
hahahhh!!

Mayiis!
great job today!!
must always so high when playing!!

i hate stupid stomach luh!!
have stomach cramp while playing!!
wtf!
haixx!
nevermind..
Mayiis still play very well!!!
xDD

2009-12-15T22:25:00.002+08:00

hellox!!

ahh... didn't post for long! xD
too lazy luh.. :x
stupid peiru!!
dun anyhow say i own u bbt!!
idc!

have friendly with sembawang and woodlands ring!
though we won but still not good enough..
Mayiis!!
JIAYOUS!!!

stupid helix!
dun like tht say zhenzhen!!
she very chio luh..
u all agree rite??!
SEE!! majority win!!
hahahh!!

2009-11-27T20:00:00.002+08:00

hey peeps!!
YANBINN IS BACK!!
miss me rite??!!
yeahh. i miss u guys alot alot!!
ii really miss my comp alot more!!
hahahh xD

enjoy my trip alot wor!
fun! very fun!! VERY VERY FUN!!!
but also..
tired! very tired!! VERY VERY TIRED!!!
is a very FRUITFUL ones!!

and i have a new name!!
YANBIAN!!
ferlyn help me choose de...
lols!

andand!
I luv Bernice too!!
she a very good roommate!!
take good care of me!!
thankyou!!

also..
fr this trip, i gain and lose something.
i gain experience fr the match we played with china peeps.
and others more..
nevertheless, i lose something too..
never wan to elaborate it..

anyway,
i love china too!!
of cos, i love singapore more!! xD
hahah!!

byebyezz!! ~~
lurb!!

2009-11-11T17:47:00.002+08:00

hellox!

im back fr genting a day ltr :P
ahh.. i din manage to meet Valeriie and Cynthia!

oh...
did not enjoy much there.
very pekcek with few ppl luh..
typical singaporean!!

just played two games in outdoor!
waste of money!!
darn!

get bored of going there.
i go there since i was 2 years old.
haixx..
but still, it better dhn i din go oversea.. xD

called suwei while im in the bus heading to singapore...
kinda quite disappointed..
but i knew they have their very best..
although they have lost, but they gain experience.

i went to view many ppl blog.
mostly, mayii de.

mayiis..
i just wanna say,
it not ur fault at all..
is just that u are unlucky to have a toooooooo serious capt..
i heard that peiru was capt.
im quite relieve actually..
it is good to have her be too..
as she is lively, cheerful..
she will bring the team more lively..
:D

2009-11-07T12:17:00.002+08:00

has being many days since my last post le..

have 2 match with Yuhua and Bukit Pajang.
currently, we have won those matches.
but next week, we will have very tough matches with Yi Hua and Cedar!
both are top in Singapore :x

ahh..
this few days i dunno wat happen to me :O
i just get irritated very easily.
i feel so stress for dunno wat reason..
haixx.
maybe cos now have matches bah...

ytd have a small fight with mayi..
in the past..
there training i feel so happy cos can upgrade my skills.
but now, i feel so stress.. being pressurize.
when i meet mayis', my heart harden.
i dunno wat happen inside me, inside my brain :(

sometime i wonder if u ppl dun understand me or i dun understand u ppl.
i just really care abt wat the others think abt us or u ppl but wat u ppl show me is..
u just dun care.
maybe is i too busybody le.
i keep telling u all that wat u all do, say or show is very important.
but u all just dun listen and might even think im a nuisance.
okay..
fine~~
im tired of all nagging..
im tired of all the disliking fr u ppl..
im tired of seeing u ppl giving me the hating look.
really enough...
i lose. i gave up.

i always try my best to achieve the best.
but in the end, i gain nth and i got hurt.
i noe im a fail capt but nth much i can do now.
u all may dislike me, hate me..
but i cannot do much alr.
i have break down.
can't be fix anymore.
not even the Jesus can bring me back.
im gone and nvr come back.
now, im just a puppet.
whoever wan to take over me, u can now.
i have no stand now.

2009-11-04T21:39:00.002+08:00

Hellox!!!

Today damn suay luh!!
went to causeway today to buy Mayis' bag!!
woot~!
i love it!
very nice de!!
hahah!!
after tht, went timezone play lo!

went Peiru hse to play VB!
in the end, nvr play bah..
cos they stupid rain ruin everything!!
haixx..
i think i should not say luh..
so forget abt it what happen after that. ._.

have dinner.
end day!!

Oh O!!
tmr got match with Yu hua!!
dunno how to play luh!
my shoulder joint pain like crazy!!
hope jiaolian dun let me play!!

:(

2009-11-01T10:13:00.002+08:00

Hello!! xD

Today is my daddy birthday!!
Happy Birthday, Daddy!!
love u alot alot!!
U are a great father.
always there for me and are ready to lend me ur ears.
though every daddy is the same, but u are unique to me!

hahah!
we going to woodlands for jack place!!
my daddy love it!
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ahh..
last few days are deadly for me!
i dunno wat happen but i just feel like i being squash in the middle..

but last friday[30/11],
a decision has made!
Thank you jiao lian, mrs goh and miss ang for ur support.
i noe that next year i will be very busy and will be very stress too.
but i would like to try to my limit..
it true that i cant handle stress but i think that i can't live in a world without stress..
when im out for work, there more stress and more difficult prob for me to handle.
so, i will jiayous de:D

ahh..
im not saying gdd things here cos i noe that jiaolian/seniors will come read..
and i admit that during this few days, i really 'hate' jiaolian..
i dun understand why vb can't join prefect or slc.
but until 30/11,
i understand.
and that why i cried..
im touched of wat the teachers are helping me
but im guilty of my decision.
i feel that im selfish and stubborn to my decision.
Sorry jiaolian and teachers.
Thank you for ur support too :D

and i will work hard in vb, studies and others..
i will prove that im can be a multi tasker!
:D

2009-10-25T21:52:00.003+08:00

25/10 :

HELLO!! ^^

everyone, YANBIN IS BACK!!
this trip was fun, but tiring!!

we like robot siah!!

keep walking de..

++ the weather so HOT!!

very omg!!

1st day..

Oo.. i forgot ley..

roughly, we go see many historical building and places!!

but i think i absorb nth cos i dun like history!!

^^

and during those visiting to museum, i cried.

okay~~ i will mantion it ltr.

dhn we go shopping!!

so funny siah!!

we[liying, minghoon and ME] run here and there in the shopping mall!!

why?? cos we searching very escalator!!

wahahaha!!

andand, we bought a same shirt!!

wah!! damn happy!!

night time!!

ahh.. !!

i hate the hotel!!

it super duper big and it freak us out!!

the unit consist of 2 bedroom, 2 toilet, kitchen, dining table and living room!!

it is damn big rite?!!

ahh.. i forget other thing liao!!

26/10:

i damn fed up today!!

i really regret fr knowing u!!
u think u boss issi??!!
only u can pangseh ppl and ppl cant pangseh u ??!
im sad to say that im not idiot to let u use me time and time!!
do u know the feeling of being use by ur best frenz..?
u won know it cos we sincerely treat u but u treat me like a idiot!!
i noe it is bad to say that but i really get hurt...
i thought that we really can go back to the time we know each other and start anew, but u hurt me agn..
and it deeper this time..
i really speechless abt this friendship..
and i gave up..
i dun think i can manage it if this happen agn..
haixx..

thank you for being with me when im sad..
though i noe it is impossible between us, but im still happy that i know u..
u are a great person and will find a great partner!!
though i can't be with u, but im not hurt at all.. :)
cos i know that u will still be there when i need u..

2009-10-23T22:43:00.002+08:00

Hellox!!

ahh..
today got training AGAIN!!
very oh god rite??!
had circuit training and its very tiring!!
almost die the second time!!
haixx!!
sadd!!

tmr im going to MALACA!!!
eek!!
i dun feel like going le!!
howhow??
who can help me??

eh.. i think i still like him sia!!
how ah??
u are just so great lo!!
always there to cheer me!!
but u like that make me happy for the time but when i get long, i can't control my feeling!!

2009-10-22T20:38:00.003+08:00

Hello!!

o.o
today is a dreadful day for me..?
ahh.. firstly, i wanna say sorry to weirdo..
'really sorry luh'

the class is so terrible and horrible!!
i get really pissed off!!
u pepo just can't listen issit??!
always talk and talk and talk!
CAN SHUT UP?!

had a very boring day today..
very period also free period and its always movie!
the only time i enjoy is Science- DRAG ME TO HELL!!
totally scary!! disgusting!!
eex!!

hmm..
after recess,english,
something bad happened..
i really dun mean slapped u lorh..
it just so unlucky that it happen at the wrong time where both us is really pissed off..
eh.. u are vex cos the outing..
im responsible for the whole class ley..
and the class super noisy!
so du blame me.. ??
i gib u 10 bubble tea can??

anyway, after assembly, i have training!!
hmm..
though not very tired but very stressful lo!!
haixx..
vb really very stressful.
but yanbin can take it, correct??
hmm..
i think so.. :P

actually i have my prevent flu injection today
but cos i coughing, doc say next 2 days dhn take!!
wakaka!!
stupid fiona make so much noise in the room!!
scary cat wor!!
aahhaha!!

that all~~
byebyzz
:D / :(

2009-10-19T22:10:00.004+08:00

Hellox!!

ahhhaha!
today played VB with mayis', vivian,siying,fiona,me and wenting!!
with a extra guy, clement!! Fiona bf!!

my passing sucks lorh!!
can't pass well!
set also cannot set!!
wat the hell im doing??!
train 10 mths and came out this way?!

we play until 12pm dhn pei siying have lunch!
dhn come my hse do house chore!!

ahhhahaha!!
my sis hamster give birth!
5 alive, 1 die!
so sad hor??!

dhn we have long john!
i dunno wat happen to u, but feel free to tell me!

2009-10-16T20:44:00.002+08:00

Hello!! :D

hehe..
today pon-ed sch..!!
whooa~~
actually i nvr..
i have fever ytd after my swimming.. !!
damn weak luh me!!

i slacked for whole day..
ahh.. i played VB with jess today!!
she not bad uh..!

Darn!!
Mayis' got back their training and jersey tee!!
rawrr!!
i tue dhn can get back!!
so bad!!

hmm.. thats all!
dun miss me :P~~

2009-10-15T21:46:00.003+08:00

Hello!!

heh!
today went to twin's hse with peiyi.
kinda early lo..
*yawn*

ahh.. didn't expect would be that fun lo.. :D
im force to wear swimming costume lo.!
i dun like it at first but it end out very fun!!
super duper!!

let me recap wat we have ::

we went down play pool play VB!
damn hard to move inside lo!
dhn can't play well too BUT..
WE STILL HAVE FUNNN!!

dhn we went big pool and play all sort of thing lo!
and i ended up have my hand sprain.!!
OMG~~
i wonder how i have vb training tmr..
cos is my RIGHT hand injure!!
lols~~

we went suana!!
is damn smoky!!
hahas!
very difficut to breath inside!!

dhn went twin's hse bathe!
wakaka!
me and peiyi share a toilet!!

hmm.. im not bian-tai kay?!
i close my eyes!!

went lot1 have long jone!
hmm.. quite nice i start to love it with peiyi and twin!!

dhn went home lo!!

byezz.. end day!

2009-10-14T20:43:00.003+08:00

Hello!!

Finally end of all the sec1 exams!!
Whooa!!
Andand, vb started!!
dunno should be happy or sad wor!!
mevermind..
I luv mayis' alot more!!

ahh.. today quite pissed off!!
by the idiot!
i was just kidding rite?!
need to scold me 'WTF' meh?!
I dun understand why pepo like to 'F***' so much??
haixx..!
and ps if i too harsh lo!
though im not guilty at all!
Wakaka!!~~

hmm..
i think my skill really drop alot!!
rawwr!
so angry!!
my serving damn lousy!!
how ah?!
I dun wan sit at the bench ley!!

uhm..
Must work harder!!

kaykay..
stinky binbin must go bath liao!!
byezz.. dun miss me!!

2009-10-09T20:49:00.002+08:00

以前的燕斌已经消失了。。。
永远都再也找不回来。。
现在的燕斌没有了笑容，只有伤心的脸孔。
现在燕斌的世界里没有了快乐，只有悲伤。

也许现在的我没有希望，只有绝望。
我的生命不再有奇迹。

也许现在的我太容易受伤，所以我把自己捆起来。

被捆起来的我，已经成为事实。
没有人能释放我。

2009-10-08T21:20:00.002+08:00

Mummy, Daddy,

can u dun give me so much pressure??
since i start my education, i was like being in the Demonta universe..
the only different is, there no demon, but there is 'stress'.'pressure' and 'unhappiness'.
i think that my smile is gradually fading away. my happy days are passed.. it not going to come back to me..
i also wish to do well in my exams, i really tried my best!
i dunno wat happen to me..
why can't i do well??!
I REALLY DON'T KNOW!
I REALLY DON'T KNOW!
I REALLY DON'T KNOW!
sorry mummy, daddy..
i noe i really disappoint u.
but it not my intention.
i really tried my very best..
i have put my 100% but i couldn't get the gd result.
really sorry mummy,daddy!
really sorry..

God, have u heard my plead??
why hasn't u take me away??
could u take me and my unhappy memories away.
i noe my act is very selfish, so the last thing i could do is only leave the happy memories with my love ones.

God, i really need to be with u.
i only bring unhappiness to people around me.
i really think that and it is a fact that YANBIN SHOULD NOT COME TO THIS WORLD!!

2009-10-03T21:56:00.002+08:00

HELLO!!

I feel terrible everyday and it getting worse!!
Today is a bad day for me..
God, could u just put an end for me..
Maybe u could bring me along with u, i think i will feel better.
I think alot this few days..
About clique, my life, my study, volleyball!
Everything to me is so dull~~
Everything going black/colourless...
My life is not colourful anymore..
Not even a single colour..

I dunno wat happen to me..
I just couldn't focus to do anything..
When im not with u, i feel terrible..
A word to describe 'LONELY'

But when im with u, i feel so undignified..
A word to describe ' STRANGER'

Maybe Yanbin should not come to this world at all..
So...

God, i plead u to take me with u.
Im sure i will not regret.
I noe that this is very selfish..
I noe that i would hurt my family alot alot..
Very deep..
But i really can't stand the life in the mortal..
Im feeling very terrible, very terrible..
I couldn't take it anymore..
No any longer..

2009-10-02T22:37:00.003+08:00

HELLO :D!

Today is the beginning of the EOY!!
Im really very stress..

Today having Chinese composition and i think i perform badly..
I don't noe why..
Maybe is bcos of recently all the trouble i had, i can't focus..

This few days, i had my recess alone..
It feel very weird without them..
But i think i need to adapt it..

To clique:

During this few day, i noe u all try ur best to salvage this friendship.
But i really can't overcome my own barrier..
I think that we really need to be apart for awhile and really consider abt this friendship..
i can't promise if we will be the same as before or maybe be clique agn,
but i think that normal friend is still okay..
If u all wan..
If u all still wan a friend like me...

Lastly, all the best.

2009-10-01T17:06:00.002+08:00

第一天没有你们的日子。。。

说实在的，这一天我过得非常辛苦。
感觉上就好像没有空气似的。。

Ah...
The worst day i had this year..
The worst lesson i had today > Science.
When i walked in the lab, i saw u..
I wan to walk to ur table and join u, but my leg couldn't..
I can't bring myself over...
Sorry..

Jessica:

u are always a good friend..
but sometime we can't outcast the destiny..
maybe we should be apart awhile and think agn if we
are suit to be friends agn..
We can;t force a magnet to attract a plastic..
and im the plastic that is always different fr magnet.
we are always group differently and can't be in the same topic.

Maybe we should wait to see if there any scientist that can change plastic to
magnet or at least there a characteristic that is the same..

Sorry. this is the only word i could say..

2009-09-30T22:09:00.003+08:00

Sorry clique..
I noe i only bring miserable to u girls..
Really sorry..

I also wish that everything can go back to the time we just noe one another
but in reality, it can't.
I really think that the god is playing fool of me..
When i really think that we are very gd frenz, clique forever,
but it happen a terrible thing between us.

原来当我觉得我们是很好的朋友时，我就开始远离你们了。
我不知何时，我就开始看不到自己的存在。
在你们的心理，我看不到自己的影子。
也许事情都改变了。。也许你们的心里都有更重要的东西。。
所以把我留在心外。
或许是我变了。。
变得更贪心。。。想成为你们的最重要的朋友，但最后还是分开。
我非常对不起。。我知道你们都不会原谅我，但我认为这是最好的决定。。
真得很对不起！！

2009-09-29T22:09:00.002+08:00

hello "(

I dun really feel like saying school/lessons today..
ah..
My whole day is emo-ing until Jessica come and cheer me up.
Thanks!! Love u muckie!

After school went to take math test and go for Chinese Oral!
Yeepee!
Today oral test not scare at all!!
Woot~~
Im surprise abt that ley.. :)
Dhn after that went to meet Jessica and Zhenzhen..
Hee~~

Finally, end day!

Thanks pepo etc. Jessica and zhenzhen
for so understanding abt my weird atittude today..
But really, im just couldn't hyper up cos of some reason..
If u see my blog, be prepare to tolerate my weird atittude for
another few days..

Thanks alot pepo!! Luv u !!

2009-09-28T21:39:00.002+08:00

HELLO!!

Ahh!!
Today very tired siah!
Ehh.. Today Ms jocelyn never come..
WOOT~~~
Other dhn that, nth much to elaborate abt the lesson lo.. -.-

RAWRR!!
I stained my skirt twice a day!!
OMG!!
Damn pekcek abt that siah!
And worse still, the guys saw it!!
AHH!! almost scold sth that i should not lo!
Wakaka..
Im got self-control de!

After school, we have history supp!
Wakaka..
I almost slept during the supp!!
Very tired siah!
After that, we wen t play vb awhile niah..
wakaka
Although im in m/c.. -.-
Quite fun.~

HAha! end of the day!!

I just realise that a broken friendship can't be mend.
Although we are friend agn, together as one.
But between us, there is always a blocker.
It just as same as>>
although the glass has been stick back with glue tgt,
but there is always scar on it to remind us that the glass had been broke.
We won be the same as before.
We are not as transparent as before.
There things that u would not want to tell me and
there is things that i would not wan u to noe.

We just couldn't go back to the time we just noe, when we are really good friend:)

2009-09-27T19:32:00.003+08:00

HELLO!! :D

As usual, KABOOM[CLIQUE] went to Ah Su's hse to studied.
Argh..
I think we talk more dhn we done?
WAKAKAKA!!
I reach there the earliest, followed zhenzhen and lao po1!
Orh..
laopo1 waste alot time today lo..!
She ate maggie mee today!!
Woots~~!
No offence laopo1.
wakakaka!!

Dhn 6pm, we left.
While we waiting for zhenzhen's car to come, we chat chat chat...
Suddenly, laopo2 emo!!
Andand, as her laogong, i being so foolish and childish!!
Dunno wat im doing siah!!
Soooooo paiseh lo!
But nevermind..
At the end, laopo2 still laugh little..!

Wakaka.. ended.

2009-09-26T14:38:00.002+08:00

H€LLO!!
I will start to blog everyday unless im too busy =(
I should be very busy cos EOY nearing!!
Oh Gosh!!

Today i woke up very latee.... Oo
12pm i think..
Dhn i have my lunch at KOPITAM!
WOOT~~
wanton mee!!
soo nice!!

At 4 plus, im going do hw and make a time-table for myself!!
Im so hardworking rite??!
Yupp, i am!

Before i forget,
KABOOOM[CLIQUE] are going out agn!!
Argh..
For revsion/hw!!
Im really looking forward for our first outing [SUSHI]!!
Wakakakakaka =)

2009-09-25T23:46:00.003+08:00

2nd post for today..
I'm seriously very sad now, feeling very terrible.

Actually is just a small issue but it has hurt me deeply.
I think this is my second time i really feel tired of being a captain.
It make me stress out and can't breath normally..
Girls, if u visit my blog and see this post, i'm really no offence.
But sometime, i think that u all have to put yourselve in my shoes.

Girls, i really don mean to shout at u all times.
But thing should be done must be done!
When i was assigned a thingy/work/job/assignment to do, i need to complete with ur co-operation.
But everytime, u all just couldn't.
I noe that u all are playful, have alot of thing to share, but sometime can u all stop ur playfulness, stop talking and listen to me?

I'm not a bossy girl.
I dun like to shout/scream but sometime[most of the time] i need to cos i wan ur attention to complete my things.
If u girls think/feel not happy, i really dunno wat to say le.
Cos i really work very hard and give my best to this team...
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And to 'ahem', i'm sorry for give u those atittude.
But ur words are really hurtful.
Ur words just told me that my effort to the team are not recognise at all.
It just tell me how 没用 i am.
Yup, u indeed apologise to me.
But ur 'apologise' just couldn't mend the hole that u pierce through my heart.
It not bcos of wat, it just simply too hurtful to me.

Just hope that time would mend the wound.

2009-09-25T15:27:00.002+08:00

HELLO! i was being complaint by the Clique that i didn't update for long!!
Actually not true! i just updated recently, didn't i?? hmm... i dun care too :P
ahah! since the my zhenzhen and lao po have alr introduce us > CLIQUE! is my time too
Wu~~

CLIQUE :
>> ME!! weirdo =P
>>> SUWEI!! laopo2
>>>> ZHENZHEN!!
>>>>> JESSICA!! laopo1
[my relationship so confusing :P]

Oo.. Yesterday, we went to Suwei hse for revision/homework!
Is super fun luh!!
Yupp! we did study!!
We do hw until 6pm and have a 5min break.[5min duper fast!!]
Dhn continue with science revision![1hr chating]
LOL!!
Seriously, i lose focus during the revision time!!
Just keep talking! talking! talking!
Wahahahhahahahahaha!!!

BINBIN LUV CLIQUE!!

2009-09-19T17:33:00.002+08:00

hello readers!! sorry for not blogging for looonnngg time :(

i dunno wat happen to me recently.. i was just feeling very emo :( i'm not sure is it bcoz of *ahem but if is bcoz of him, i will upset of myself.

i wonder why i am like that.. always looking forward a impossible relationship but ended up, i would get hurt badly.. haixx.. just wan to put this to an end but always fail.. it easy to like someone but impossible to forget!! haixx..

andand.. frenz that always cheer me up, really thanks alot.. bcoz of u, i'm able to keep going for so long.. xD

2009-08-23T19:02:00.000+08:00

我真搞不懂自己！！自己已经是个非常差劲的朋友，有个很好很好的一位女生要更我做朋友，我还要挑剔什么？？！我真的真不想失去你！！如果不是有你在我身边一直鼓励我，为我打气，我才能在开开心心的在学校。。

你对我很重要！！
你对我非常重要！！
你是个很好的朋友！！
你是个非常好的朋友！！
我很需要你的鼓励！！！！
你的鼓励很重要！！！！！！
你的鼓励是我的力量！！！！！

我现在最想对你说的就只有那3个字！！

谢谢你！！

2009-08-22T14:09:00.000+08:00

ello dead blog!!? lol

friday got 2 match lor.. woodlands ring and CHIJ dunno wat behind lurh...
wah! sibei tough match can??!
wanna die halfway le! hate the setter of woodlands ring!
why keep fang qiu?! u noe i fall down coz that?! very pain!!!
RAWR!!
overall, still a gd play!!

psps.. very short post..!! bleah bleah!!

2009-08-15T20:22:00.000+08:00

Oo.. quite long nv update le!!

hehe.. my jersey is 12!! not 1!

HOORAY!!

er.. win the match with [funcun?] sec yesterday but..!

is not a good play. i damm nervous de! like a

MU TOU! standing there!

Jiaolian shouldn't have put me in!

i play very badly kay?!

DISAPPOINTED!!!

i donno why i played soooooooo badly but i will

JIAYOU de! i nv spike sia!

OMG! my first time i really really feel that i not suit be

captain...

aiya.. if really i being replace, i really don mind le.

bcoz since i play not well, can't control my nervousness

and.. i really not suit!

okayokay..

1 last thing! i lost the phone chain that my angel gave me de!! OMG!

i love it sooooo much! but.. haiz.. no more le.!

bear, i will remember u 4eva de although u are not longer here..

2009-08-08T21:29:00.000+08:00

Oh dear!! i was being harass by the 'kor' message!! LOL

kays.. i noe my jersey no. it is 1. uh.. i don really like wor.. look lonely 1..
before i forget, next friday we having FIENDLY MATCH [donno wat sch]! i damm scare can?!
donno got chance to play anot..D:

JiaoLian: i can't help to stop my nervous when ur eyes so big and stare at me marh!!

but pepo, is really frightening of being stare at with BIG EYES!! lol.. before i forget, i think i will get sack by JL lor!! NVM!! maybe is me whom sack him!! hahas!

don get wrong, i mean i strip off the name'CAPTAIN' myself.. LOL!

BYEZ..

FLOWER 4 ROX! JIHOO!! PRINCE OF ... me

2009-08-06T20:45:00.000+08:00

我感到好心痛喔。。从来没想到我对你来说是那种人。
一直以为我是个好朋友，但今天才知道我是那么的差劲。
很差劲，很差劲！
这十三年来的朋友，真抱歉。。我从来就不是个好朋友。
委屈你们了。。必须忍受我那么多年。
我真的真得很抱歉。。。

如果你有看这个的话，我在这里跟你说‘对不起’。
希望你以后都不会遇见我这样的朋友。

现在的我，觉得我这种人都不应该来到世界上。

2009-08-03T21:14:00.000+08:00

I'M BACK FR TRAINING!!LOL!
so tiring today leh.. my feets full of blisters lor!
today get scolded by Zhang of my attire. becoz i pull out
to much of my shirt. butbutbut.. my jiaolian say 1 button is
acceptable lor!! Nvm lurh..
Seriously, i not don like Zhang but just don like the
atittube that she gave when she is debating.. she okay to me lurh

pepo, i today got a mind set that i wanna step down of captain..
last time is dying to be but now, feel very tired as not physical but
mental. i just felt that i'm a failure when i control them or get their
attention:( haiz.. pepo, if u see this part, hope u can be more cooperative can??

2009-08-01T21:41:00.000+08:00

YO! i slacking my whole day wor.. No hw done..
OMG!! Right now i got FLU!! wanna to have H1N1!
have M/C on monday coz some1(JIEYING) wanna kill
me lor.. LOL

in fact, i was just tired of school day le.. having
rumours around, looking out for backstabber. OMG lurh!
why can't ppl to be more pure! have yellowish mind and
vicious ideas!! haiz.. lucky i have my zhen zhen with me!
LOVE HER so much!!

ppl seldom come my blog wor.. must come often leh..
very boring alone here! LOL

2009-07-31T20:38:00.000+08:00

wah! i being say i change le! seriously, is not me, i think.
can't blame everything to me marh.. i also one of the victim too.
but.. she think i bad bad bad! really not my fault.. really..

haiz.. really i change lurh.. but.. nvm

2009-07-30T20:53:00.000+08:00

Arghh..!! feel like killing the weirdo liao!! he idiot,
robbed my wallet and HP today lor!! my poor weizhen tis
time really pok liao... her bill should brust tis time!
The idiotic weirdo must be responsible! look smart but
is damm stupid lurh! i think the art cher said wrongly
liao. He where shuai! My frenz more shuai although look
foolish but still very cute lurh! he is such a cutie to
me!! love alot sia!

2009-07-26T21:13:00.000+08:00

LOL!! blog for nth, no one noe tis deserted blog currently:(
OMG!! I sat beside the stipid weirdo!! and get freaked out by the idiotic !!
he just a freak to me lurh! speechless of him sia. think himself
shuai and cute??! DISGUST MANX!! 1st person i wanna kill!!
PPL, be careful of tis freak!! wanna noe?? DON TELL U!
hahas..LOL!

now need to do quiz lurh! sabo by adrian CHAN!!

1. The person who tagged u - adrain chan

2. Ur relationship with him/her? - 'bro'

3. Your first impression on him/her? - open to stranger....

4. Your most memorable on him/her? - don have lurh

5. The most memorable he/she say to you? - 'u so understand me'?...

6. If she/he became ur enemy , wat would you do? - dunno?? ignore him!! LOL

7. If she/he become ur enemy , the reason will be? - dunno! wat stupid question leh!

8. The most desired thing you wan to do who him/her is? - counsel him?? (L) to councel older ppl!!

9. The overall impression on him/her? thoughtful, caring?

10. The characteristic you hate most about yourself? - scary cat!

11. The most ideal person you wan to be? - SPORT GIRL!

12. For people who care n love bout you, say something to them - LOve u too! mucks:P

Pass this quiz to 10 who you wan to know how they feel about you.

1. WEIZHEN
2. JESSICA
3. EDWIN
4. MANDY
5. XUEQI
6. LIYING
7. HUIQING
8. PEIRU
9. JEAN
10. SIYING

Who is 10 relationship with ?
- dunno

Is 4 a male or female ?
- female la hahas...

Wat is 8 studying at the moment?
- dunno

Who is the last person you had a chat with on the list ?
- weizhen

Wat kind of music does 9 like?
- dunno

Do 6 hav any sibling?
- no, i think?

Is 2 single?
- no? LOL

Wat is the surname of 5?
- NG

Wat is the hobby of 7 ?
- zi high??

Do 3 & 8 get along well?
- they might not know each other

Where is 3 studying at?
- chung cheng high (yishun)

Say something about your eye.
- they help me see lurh!! nub

Have u try developing feeling for 5?
hahas! my les?? NO, of course!

Where does 3 live?
dunno

Wat colour does 7 like?
dunno

Are 1 & 2 good friend?
quite gd

does 7 like 5 ?
nope they dun even know each other

How do u get to know 6 ?
classmate

does 7 have any pets?
dunno

Do you think 4 is the sexiest person in the world ?
she chio

Wat am i doing now?
do quiz lurh!!